Wife Lesson: Is it still submission if you're sulking?!

Today I was challenged to become a better wife through my response to my husband, Jason. We had plans to go out to eat as a family before I had to be a church for a meeting. I was very excited about the possibility of going out for lunch, but as usual, we were running late and I started stressing. I don't enjoy being rushed and so suggessted that we might not have time to go to lunch. Jason thought we had plenty of time to make it. As we were pulling out of the  driveway he asked if I would check the mail. My response was a quick, "Can't we check it when we come home?" 


I wasn't trying to get out of checking the mail. My thought was that I was already feeling rushed and let's just get a move on. Jason told me that I shouldn't get so stressed out. I'm not sure if your husband has ever told you that, but I really struggle when Jason tells me I shouldn't be so upset about something. In response I mumbled under my breath, "Thanks" as I sulked and looked out the window. I was determined to give him the silent treatment. 


That is when it hit me... why? What was giving him the silent treatment really going to accomplish? Would that "show" him I was mad at him? Why was I mad at him? Was it because we were running late or the fact he didn't respond to my stress the way I had hoped. I wasn't even sure myself. But there I sat, looking out the window, feeling about two inches in height because of my childish behavior. 

So, my mind wandered to submission. How is it really done? How come I can be so good at submitting to Jason at certain times, but in others I'm horrible? Is submission only action or is it also attitude? I realized that I was not being very submissive to Jason. Even if I was in action; I wasn't in attitude. Ouch! 

What good is it to go along with something my husband says if I'm sulking about it at the same time? How is that honoring? It is not and it is not true submission. My challenge is to be aware that submission is not merely an act, but an attitude... a lifestyle.